Each day is proving to be at least a little bit of a struggle for me. The newness of my diet and exercise plan has worn off. It’s no longer a shiny new toy for me. Basically, the honeymoon period is over. Even though I know that once I start working out and definitely when I’ve finished my workout that I will not regret my decision to do my daily workout, I still find myself trying to tell myself that it might be okay to take today off and just rest. I allowed myself to do that this past Sunday. And that’s fine. It had been 2 weeks since I had taken a day of rest.
I call it a success when I do make the decision to do my daily workout each day. And it is a success. Just like it’s a success when I stick to my calorie limit for the day, which, I haven’t done all this week. Yesterday, I got very close. I was only about 100 calories over my limit for the day. So I’ll consider that a success too. I have to double down if I want to continue to succeed on my weekly weigh-ins and my overall weight loss. Frankly, when I weigh in this Sunday, I’m not expecting a loss, but I am at least hoping that I didn’t gain anything. I shouldn’t. I didn’t go THAT overboard with eating over my calorie limits.
I have great expectations for myself. I don’t think they’re unrealistic in the slightest. I’m not trying to be a supermodel or a Miss America contestant. I don’t think it’s possible for me, personally, to lose that much weight anyway. I’d have to get down to about 130 pounds and I haven’t weighed that little since I was in junior high school. No, instead, I’m shooting for no more than 170, which I see as a perfectly attainable goal and I know I’ll be happy with my body at that weight. I know that if I stick to my daily goals of working out and staying within my calories that I will reach that goal…and sooner than the July 1st “deadline” I have set for myself.
At my job, I work a 12 hour shift. Well, I work three 12 hour shifts and a 6 hour shift each week. After my lunch breaks, that comes out to 40 hours a week. When I was making my decision to start exercising and eating healthier, I was worried that I would only be able to work out on my days off and was especially worried because I work in 3 day blocks and would have to go 3 days without working out. I didn’t want to do that. But I figured out how to do it. As soon as I get home from work at about 7pm, I jump right on working out for 25-40 minutes, then hop in the shower, eat and go to bed by 9pm. My other worry was that it would be next to impossible to eat anywhere near as healthy as I was wanting to eat with being away from home for up to 14 hours on my work days. Well, I figured out how to do that as well. I was making it more complicated than it needed to be. I thought about it long enough and BAM! I came up with the solution pretty easily.
Well, now that I’ve set that all up, I must say that they are switching us to 8 hour shifts starting June 3rd. I will have to change up my exercise. My eating will be fine. I’ll just be taking a snack and my dinner with me, instead of lunch and 2 snacks. I will be working the evening shift from 2pm to 10pm (most likely). I won’t have as many days off during the work week, so less days that I can do 2 workouts a day. So, I will make up for that by upping my minimum workout time from 25 minutes up to 40 minutes a day on work days. I will still do double workouts on my 2 days off a week. I’m thinking that I will be able to control my eating a little better on the 8 hour shifts. I won’t be eating so close to bed time anymore either, which I’m sure will be good for me.
I’m nearing a milestone in my weight loss. As of my weigh-in this past Sunday put me at 3.8 pounds left to lose before I hit the 10% loss mark. 21 is the magic number here. It is also a little over the halfway mark to my goal of 39 pounds lost. I’m excited to reach this point. Like I said before, I’m not really expecting a loss, or much of a loss, when I weigh-in this coming Sunday, so I’m not expecting to reach that milestone this week, but I am hoping I’ll reach it the following week. Wish me luck!
I love it when I rest my chin on my hands and can feel how angular my jawline has become opposed to how soft it was 6½ weeks ago. I love to run my fingers along my jawline and under my chin where there used to be a somewhat pronounced double chin. I also love to clasp my hands together, weaving my fingers into each other. Why? Because I can feel how slimmer my finger has become. Also, a ring on my finger that fit snugly at the beginning of the year I am now able to slide it up and over my knuckle fairly easily. When I’m doing my rounds at work, I love how my duty belt sits on my hips and feels slightly too big around my waist. I love how the heaviness of the radio tugs it down on the left side ever so slightly.
I love how, when I look at my legs while wearing the leggings I wear for working out, that my thighs are visibly thinner to me. My calves are definitely slimmer than they used to be. The boots I wear for work used to zip up tight around my calves, now, there’s a lot of free space between my calves and the tops of the boots. They’re no longer tight! Even though my upper arms measured in at the exact same 14 inches they measured at when I started this journey, they’re not as flabby and loose as they used to be. They’ve firmed up a little and, even though they’re the same circumference, my uniform sleeves feel looser. And I love it that my uniform shirts are loose around my torso now where they used to be rather tight and uncomfortable.
I look forward to every weigh-in and every remeasure I do. I love watching myself progress along this journey. I love seeing even so little as a ½ pound loss register from my weigh in the week before. I can get excited over just a one inch loss from my thigh. Hell, for just one month, that was pretty good. But the number I was really proud of, inches wise, was what came off of my waist: 2½ inches! In just one month! That’s amazing!
So, as I am approaching this milestone of 10% of my starting weight lost, I am hopeful that I can continue my progress. I am positive that I will continue to do what is best for me and what makes me feel good not only in the short run, but in the long run as well. Regular exercise is definitely a great replacement for shoveling junk food into my body. I am no longer abusing myself by being unhealthy. I am respecting my body and my happiness by being healthy. Thanks to the regular daily exercise, I’m sleeping so much better. Before, I was having so many problems falling asleep and then, when I did fall asleep, I was waking up 2-5 times a night. Now, I wake up not at all or only once.
I love being healthier. It’s such an amazing and all around wonderful feeling!