Thursday,
I overate a little bit. I had 2 regular bags of M&Ms, 2 small
tortillas (plain) and some crackers with peanut butter. This never
would have happened except
that I had an overwhelming tiredness going on that day…and I was at
work and unable to go to a grocery store and buy myself a couple
apples…which would have been the best choice by far to help wake me up.
The M&Ms ended up doing the trick and getting me through
the end of my shift, but at what cost? I probably consumed about 1000
calories that I otherwise would have not eaten just because I was
lethargic. Another option I could have pursued would have been to give a
coworker that has a very large coffee percolator
that he charges $1 a day if you want coffee from it. I had a dollar in
my pocket and I totally should have just had a cup or two more of
coffee. Even if I put cream in it, that would have been WAY less
calories for the day.
Saturday, July 21, 2012
Overeating
Friday, July 20, 2012
P90X Progress
I've
had 6 really good workouts so far this week. I love that I bought that
adjustable pull up bar that allows me to do “girl” pull ups. That’s
awesome because I can’t
even do just 1 regular pull up. I’d completely miss out on like half
of two different workouts (the Chest & Back and the Legs & Back
workouts)…and that’s just unacceptable to me. I *must* be able
to participate as much as I’m physically able to.
So, when I was in Walmart the other day and saw the Perfect Pull Up bar
and it cost less than the other pull up bars that don’t allow you to do
“girl” pull ups and just kind of clip on over the top of your door
frame.
I’m
feeling pretty good about going into my first weekly weigh in
tomorrow. I don’t know if I've really lost any weight yet, but my
clothes are definitely a little
tiny bit looser. So, if I haven’t lost any weight, I’m at least sure I
haven’t gained any. The first 3 weeks of P90X don’t have a whole lot
of cardio in them and, in my experience, it’s cardio that really burns
the fat off my body. But, I’m also not stupid
and am fully aware that strength training burns probably just as many
calories as cardio, you just don’t necessarily sweat as much…unless, of
course, you’re rapid fire going from one exercise to the next to the
next and so on. But, I know it does burn calories
just as well and effectively. Plus, it also builds muscle, which helps
you burn even more calories during your workouts.
I
already thought this, but now I’m pretty well convinced of it…P90X is
going to do wonders for me and my body and my self-esteem. My goals
that I want to achieve by
the end of the 90 days include being able to do the Ab Ripper X workout
in its entirety, without stopping to rest and with good form. I also
want to be able to do 3 actual pull ups. And, last (for now) but not
least, I want to lose 30 pounds.
About
3 weeks before I’m done with P90X, I’m going to start looking for a
copy of P90X2 on craigslist to buy. I’m not sure I’ll be able to find a
copy of it or a used
original just because it hasn’t been out on the market for very long.
So, I may end up buying it new. I’d rather not spend that much money,
but I will if I have to. I’d really like to do P90X2 after I've
completed P90X. Then, of course, after I've completed
P90X2, I want to try my hand at the Insanity workout program.
Monday, July 16, 2012
Fitness/Weight Loss
On
top of my own personal fitness/weight loss challenge that I’m doing
with the P90X and the 80-day weight loss challenge, I get to work yesterday
and I’m informed about
a fitness challenge that will be starting on August 1st!
It’s a $10 buy in per person. It’s not about weight loss, it’s about
meeting goals you’ve set out for yourself. How awesome is that? I am,
of course, going to participate in it. I’m looking
forward to it. That’s just one more thing to motivate me and help keep
me on track to reach my goals and to then maintain them. You see, the
term of the challenge is one year. So, it’s starts this August 1st and ends next year on August 1st.
I plan to reach my goal of 45 lbs lost by my birthday (Dec. 14th),
but then I have to immense task of MAINTAINING that weight loss. If I
can maintain it that long, then I should be good for the long term.
After I've reached my weight loss goal
of 45 lbs (hopefully by my goal date), I will set new goals for myself
that are strictly fitness based. For instance, bicycle 50 miles a week
or walk 25 miles a week. Or maybe, it will be to start and complete a
fitness program, like P90X2 or Insanity.
I want to go to this place that does non-surgical pain relief. They
claim (and a friend/co-worker has had it done) that they can “cure” shin
splints. I want to do this because I want to start running. So, if I
get that done, another goal of mine can be
to do one 5K a month. The options are practically endless, really.
Tuesday, July 10, 2012
P90X
I
had a little setback this week. I went to start the P90X program this
past Sunday only to find out the discs I had, which were copies of
copies of the program, didn’t
work properly and so I was unable to start it. Instead of just popping
in another one of my workout dvd’s, I simply gave up. Thankfully, I
didn’t binge. I just gave up and got in the shower and loafed around on
the couch until it was time to go to work.
I was going to try to convince myself to just buy the program new from
Beachbody itself, but then I realized that I could possibly find the
program used on Craigslist for a lot cheaper. I found one set for $50,
messaged the guy but never heard back from him.
So, I messaged the guy that had it for $30. That guy messaged me back
only to tell me that his set was copies, but they were copies straight
from the original and were in picture perfect condition and did come
with all the documents that the original program
comes with. Plus, it has 3 discs that I don’t have in my copies of
copies. So that’s a bonus. I figure, if the discs turn out to be bunk,
I only spent $30 on them. But I’m hoping they work as good as he says
they do. So, I will be starting P90X this coming
Sunday and I really couldn’t be more excited about it. Of course, I’m
anxious about it, like I am about starting or doing anything new. I’m
afraid I won’t get bitten by the exercise bug, which I shouldn’t even
worry about because I ALWAYS get bitten by the
exercise bug, I just have to take the first steps and actually start
exercising and it is pretty much guaranteed to happen.
I’m
really hoping that P90X becomes my exercise salvation. I need
something that I look forward to doing every day, something that
inspires me to get out of bed in
the morning. I need to sweat. I need to exert myself. I need the
stress relief. I know that once I’ve started exercising regularly
again, what I’m eating will just fall into place. I will crave
healthier foods. I will no longer long for junk foods like
pizza and cheeseburgers. Baked chicken, baked fish and loads of
grilled and steamed veggies will be what my body wants more than
anything else.
I’ve
already taken my beginning measurements and pictures. I was sad to see
that of the 24 pounds I lost at the beginning of this year, I had
regained 20 of them.
Ugh. That puts me back at 205. And that means that I now have upwards
of 45 pounds left to lose, instead of just 30 or 35. I’ve set a goal
timeframe of getting below 170 by my birthday, December 14th.
That’s 5 months. That means I need to lose
at least 7 pounds a month to achieve the 35 pounds, which would put me
at 170. I can totally do that. It’s not unreasonable in the slightest.
Monday, July 2, 2012
Retake Control
I’ve
been getting the urge to be healthier. This is a big step in the right
direction for me because I’ve had nothing but urges to binge eat and be
lazy that refuse to be ignored.
Part of me seems to have finally gotten sick and tired of living that
way. Part of me has gotten over feeling like I failed myself and is
tired of me punishing myself with the self-disrespect I’ve been
incessantly pummeling myself with for the past 3½ months.
I’ve
done nothing positive with myself during this time that I have felt
like a failure. I’ve only encouraged myself to do as little as possible
and eat whatever I want, whenever I
want. And that is no way to live. I know I’ve gained back at least 15
pounds of the 24 pounds I had lost at the beginning of this year. I’m
trying not to think about this. I’m trying to focus on just starting
over from where I’m at now. Let me tell you,
it *sounds* easy, but it’s not. It’s not easy when you’re someone that
has a habit of hyperanalyzing everything, especially when it comes to
her body.
I
mean, really, I’m just your average, typical adult female, obsessing
over how my body looks, over every little last pound on the scale. I’m
too quick to jump to insulting myself and
calling myself a failure and feeling complete disappointment in
myself. I don’t stop and focus on the amount of weight I’ve lost since I
first started at the beginning of last year; I focus on the amount of
weight I haven’t lost yet. I’ve got to start praising
myself for what I’ve accomplished thus far and not focus on how much of
the journey is left to go ahead of me.
I
want to be one of those success stories you read in the magazines or on
online blogs. I want to be a testament to every woman’s ability to
focus her energies and do whatever she wants
with her life. She can mold her body into the form she truly desires
it to be. She can sculpt her personality to be as nice or as mean as
she wants to be toward others.
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