Did I Actually Survive the Holidays?

Christmas eve and Christmas day were not stellar eating days for me.  They were, in fact, epic failures.  We did a spread at work on Christmas eve full of cookies, pie, fudge, tamales, chips & queso, carne guisada, and more!  I have to admit that I partook of quite a bit of what was offered.  Then, yesterday, on Christmas day, I had full intentions of eating “on diet” since we had our celebration the day before.  However, there was more pie and cheesecake and desert stuff that people had left over from their Christmas meals with family before they came into work.  Then, when I got to my second shift of work, they were having their holiday spread and invited me to join.  And I did.  I ate so much that I couldn’t eat anymore.

I can’t tell you how uncomfortable I am in my work clothes right now.  They are so tight.  I feel like a stuffed sausage, practically busting at the seams.  I’ve really got to stick with exercising 3-5 times a week and eating “on diet” most of the time.  I’ve got to reverse what I’ve done to myself over the last almost 4 months.  And to do that, I need to STOP eating handouts at work.  I used to be able to say no to free food…but here lately that has gone out the window.  My resolve has vanished.  My willpower has left the building.  I’ve been having to take antacids because my work pants are so tight that they’re squeezing my innards and causing heartburn.  Blech!

So, the last couple days were a total wash as far as being “on diet.”  Then, I go into work today with the plan to not eat anything off diet and there were cupcakes.  Ugh.  What has become of me?  Anyway, I had 2 cupcakes.  Then, I went to drink my protein shake and it was gross.  It smelled funny to me.  Then I realized what was wrong.  It wasn’t the plain chocolate that I thought it was.  It was chocolate mint.  Sometimes I like chocolate mint, sometimes I don’t.  This was one of the times I do not like it.  But, as luck would have it, Mark really likes that flavor so I’m going to sell him the tub of powder for half price.  Win-win!  Anyway, the rest of the day, I stuck to my diet, so that was really good and I’m proud of myself for that.  Now if I can just stick with it for long enough to at least get back under 180 again.  I know my pants will fit so much better once I’ve lost the first 5 pounds.

Tomorrow is another 3 mile run for me.  It’s also another 16 hour work day.