Bully

Thursday, I had a dentist appointment at 8am, then I was working a double (16 hour) shift at work last night.  Because of the double shift, I needed to get a really good sleep in.  However, due to having to wake up for an 8am dentist appointment, there was a chance that wouldn’t really be possible, especially considering I wanted to get in a 3 mile run.  So, instead of doing my run after the dentist, I decided I would do it before.  So, I set my alarm for 6 and rolled out of bed 20 minutes later.  I did my 3 mile run and I did it without stopping.  The way things have been going for me recently with my running, that in and of itself is an accomplishment.  Then I showered and headed to the dentist with 5 minutes to spare.

Kohl’s had sent out an email overnight saying that if you spent at least $25 that you would get 200 rewards points which equals a $10 off coupon at the end of the month.  So I went and found a pair of running capris I liked plus they had some running related t-shirts, so I bought a couple of those too.  Everything was on sale.  Yay!  And, on top of the 200 rewards points I will get, I also earned 41 points.  Awesome!

When I checked my Facebook the other night, I had a new message.  When I went to check the new message I noticed there was a message in my “other” folder, so I checked that too.  It was a bully message that said it didn’t matter how much weight I lost, I would still be “an ugly as sin bull dyke.”  Now, before you get all concerned about me and my feelings, all is well.  I am above this person’s ability to hurt me.  Their words mean nothing to me.  I see a person that is insecure and has low self-esteem…it’s sad, really.  They feel the need to lash out at others to make themselves feel better.  I don’t know who it was, but I know I work with them.  The Facebook account they sent the message from has a moniker instead of their real name.  So, not only are they insecure with low self-esteem, but they feel the need to hide behind a fake name.  I just think it’s kind of funny that the last 2 years I’ve taken part in the Stand Up 5K that benefits the Anti-defamation League which is a foundation that helps educate people against bullying and here I am getting a bullying message.  It’s not the first time I’ve gotten one.  The difference is, when I got the last one I was still very overweight and very emotionally vulnerable.  Now, I’m strong and I have my self-esteem back.  I just brush it off and say their jealous of my muscles.  Haha!

So, what I want to know is…do any of you have stories about being bullied?  For your weight or for any reason.  How did you deal with it?  How did it affect you?