Do I Need Therapy?

Something I discovered when I went off diet over the weekend and the first part of this week was that when I’m ON diet, I have no problem with urges or cravings for junk foods or with thinking obsessively about food…but, when I’m OFF diet, I start having urges and cravings and thinking obsessively about food.  This is very interesting to me.  This makes my idea to just stick to this diet as my standard way of eating after I’ve hit my goal weight even more of a really good idea.  I mean, without the obsessive thoughts about food, the uncontrollable cravings and the insane urges to binge, why do I need to spend all that extra money on copays for therapy?  I’m not saying that therapy wouldn’t help me greatly, but, if sticking to this diet curbs the issues I have, then why do I need to go through it right now?  I’ll just put going to therapy on the back burner for the time being and revisit the idea in the future.

I know that with my going off diet for those 5 days that I gained a little bit back.  I slipped up and gave in to cravings and urges.  The good news is that I stopped it quickly and got myself back on track without too much “damage” done.  I mean, there was weight gain…about 2 lbs.  Ugh.  Not a lot, but for being “off the wagon” for only 5 days…it IS a lot.  But, I’m back on track now and I won’t let a possible TTOTM derail me in the next month like it did this month.  I just allowed myself to get overwhelmed because I was wholly unprepared for that to occur.  This next month, I will just assume that TTOTM will happen.  If it doesn’t, that’s fine, but if it does, I’ll be mentally prepared.  And, other than this coming Saturday, I will stick to the diet 100% and have faith in it.

The good news is, even though I gain a couple pounds back over the last week, I still have at least a 10 lb loss for the first month on the diet and that is still a success in my book.  I’m hoping I can match that 10 lbs in the second month and, if I’m lucky, maybe a couple pounds extra.  All I can do is follow the diet and START EXERCISING again.  Geez.  I really need to get on the exercise.  Now that I know there is an open wifi network in the fitness area of my apartments, I can watch programs I have DVRed on my TV on my tablet and keep myself unbored while running on the treadmill.  Not that I want to start running solely on the treadmill, but I’ll be doing the majority of my runs on the treadmill for the foreseeable future because I simply do not want to run outside.  I mean, I DO want to run outside, but not with the humidity and heat that’s going on right now.  But, right now, I just want to focus on actually exercising.  That is the most important thing right now.  I want to get in 3 runs a week and if they have to be on the treadmill, then so be it.  I also want to get in at least one day of strength training and then, if I can motivate myself I also want to do a bike ride and/or some yoga next weekend some time.