Friday was payday and of course, I ordered some
more scrapbooking supplies because, well, I need more. <rolls
eyes> Aside from that, I also registered for my very first 50K
race!!! OMG! My friend Ben is going to run it with me, though, so
while it’s scary, it’s a manageable scary because I won’t be doing it
alone. I am really excited to run my very first ultra marathon,
though! WOOHOO! I signed up for the Prickly Pear 50K which is March
12th in San Antonio, TX. Hopefully it won’t be
muddy or otherwise gross. I did 24-ish miles last year in March for a
trail race and it was nothing but mud and water up to my chest. While it
was definitely a memorable experience and was mostly fun, it’s not really something
I’m hot to repeat anytime soon. I don’t mind getting dirty but that was a
little on the ridiculous side. I’m sure you agree.
Another thing I registered for is my very first
Painting With a Twist session for a girls night on the 21st of this
month. Painting With a Twist, if you’re not in central Texas, is one of
those BYOW (bring your own wine) painting party places. The painting
we’ll be doing is the Texas state outline with the Austin skyline inside with a
sunset/sunrise colored sky. The model says “Austin stole my <3,” but I
don’t want mine to say that. I’m probably just going to paint “Austin”
and that’s it. I came to a decision last month about Austin and how I
believe Austin is the reason I don’t much care for Texas. If I lived,
say, in San Antonio, I might be happier. It’s a simpler life down in
SA. And my friend Jennifer lives there and she knows all sorts of
fantastic and cool places to eat and hang out. But I can’t move there
because I’m not commuting for 3+ hours a day to and from work. I wouldn’t
be able to work OT like I do now, for starters. I’d have to work either
just partial shifts or on my days off. Neither is acceptable to me.
I need to show you guys some of my crafty hauls
that I’ve splurged on lately (if I can just remember to take pictures of them
before I put them away and take them out of their packaging). I know, I
know, I need to stop. One of my top 3 goals for this year was to spend
LESS. So, after the scrapbooking convention on the 28th, I’m cutting
myself off from crafty purchases for a while. I have more than enough
stuff. I do need to get some better storage options. So I was
thinking I might probably buy a raskog cart to help with that issue. However, I bought some of those 3 drawer
plastic storage things from Target instead.
I will buy a raskog, but not right now.
I do need something to put my Project Life card containers into instead
of them just hanging out on my couch like they are right now. BUT, because I bought those drawer
containers, I was able to seriously organize my craft area. It still needs more organization, but it’s
way better than it was.
So, every now and then, EVERYONE suffers from
lack of motivation. No one is
exempt. Not beginners, not elites. No one.
It happens to everyone at some point.
It’s been about a year and a half since I suffered from a lack of
motivation. I now find myself suffering
from it at the moment. Ever since 2017
started, I’ve had a hard time kicking my running into gear and getting out the
door for runs that I have scheduled for myself…or not running the full distance
I had intended on running. To say it’s a
little frustrating would be an understatement.
I know it all started when I had the issue with the medication last fall
and it made me have cysts on my ovaries and regain like 15 pounds. I’ve been back on my previous medication for
a little over 2 months now. While I FEEL
better, I’m not seeing things happen the way I want them to happen, the way I had
hoped they’d happen once I got back on my original med and got restabilized on
it. I’ve lost like 3 or 4 of that 15
pounds I packed back on. I look in the
mirror and I’m disgusted. This is just
my own warped perception of how I look. There’s
actually nothing wrong with how I look. It’s
just not the way I want to look because I’m not at the weight I want to be
at. The weight I was at just 3 months
ago. I felt so great and loved how I looked. I’m just trying to get back to that moment in
my life.
The GOOD news is that even though I’m not losing
the weight like I want to, I’m not gaining weight. I’m essentially maintaining at about 161
pounds. I really want to lose 10-ish
pounds as soon as I can. It’d be
fabulous if I could lose it before my trip home to visit family and friends in
May. So, that’s like 4 months to lose
10-ish pounds? Totally achievable. Totally.
I’m just trying to not stress myself out about this. I’m just trying to be smart about it and
figure it out. I am pretty sure that my
eating is the key so I’ve been tweaking how I’m eating a little bit to see if
different things work better than others.
This week, I’m finishing out the zoodles with meat sauce I made for my
lunches last week, and then I’m going back to the ½ rotisserie chicken for
lunch each day. I really do like having
the fruit smoothies with 3 boiled eggs (the eggs are not blended into the
smoothies…gross…haha) for breakfasts.
Anyway, so, I’ve pretty much accepted that I won’t hit my
120 mile goal for January. And I’m okay
with that. I still have another 11
months in this year to make up for this month’s lack of mileage. Like I said, I’m not stressing about this
lull right now. and that’s how I’m
seeing it…as a lull…nothing more. I ran
hard last month and my body needs rest. Rest
isn’t something I give my body a lot of.
I mean, I work 64 hours a week and then I run an average of 25 miles a
week (that was just the “average” weekly mileage for 2016 with 1274 total miles
ran over the whole year…there were 40+ mile weeks in there) and I don’t take
time off from anything. I just go-go-go
all day, every day. so I’m taking January
as a “rest month” for all intents and purposes.
I started physical therapy at RunLab and am really enjoying that process
and learning new exercises and workouts.
I LOVED the speedy hill workout on the treadmill, for example.
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