Finding My Determination

The pictures for the Capital 10K are already posted on the photographer’s website (and yet the photos from last Sunday’s half marathon are not posted yet…go figure).  I was looking at them and, frankly, I’m appalled.  I knew I had gained some weight but I’ve been looking at myself in the mirror with apparently very kind eyes.  I compare my finisher photo with last year’s finisher photo and I can definitely see the difference.  I’m definitely “fluffier” than I was a year ago.  And I don’t like it.  Last night I made a point to go to the gym.  I really wanted to run, but it was after dark, it had been raining and I did NOT want to run on the treadmill.  I did a combination workout.  I did the workout that the trainer, Paige, at the gym showed me last year plus a couple exercises on the TRX straps.  I burned about 400 calories in about 40 minutes.  That’s a good burn.  And I felt great when I got done.

I’m already making plans for making sure I get to the gym next week.  Next week, I have the Austin 10/20 on Sunday, then Monday I’m hanging out with Amanda and scrapbooking with her.  I will most likely go to the gym when we’re done.  Tuesday, if I’m feeling up to it, I’ll run in the morning, but if not, I’ll run Wednesday morning (most likely scenario).  I work a double shift Wednesday so no workout Thursday morning because I’ll be sleeping.  Friday I’ll run and then I’m working a double shift again.  Then, Saturday I’m off work so I will try to hit the gym again after I wake up in the afternoon.

I really need to do what I can to drop 10 pounds.  And that’s all I’m going to focus on right now.  10 pounds.  The experts all say to take your weight loss in small, achievable increments.  So that’s what I’m going to do.  Sure, I’m only going for 20 (I hope that’s it…I’ll start weighing again next Saturday), but I don’t want to think about the number 20.  That’s a big number.  I want to think about the number 10.  10 I manage.  10 I can handle.  10 I can do.

this was taken sunday afternoon...OMG look at my stomach!!!  i have to
get rid of that!!!

I ran 5.7 miles today and, well, it wasn’t easy.  It wasn’t exactly hard either, though.  It was slow and that’s okay.  I averaged 11:37 per mile.  Wow.  Putt putt putt.  But, like I said, that’s okay.  It was somewhat a recovery run, so slow is good.  I just ran the Capital 10K on Sunday and then yesterday I kicked butt at the gym and I’m very sore and stiff.

Tomorrow, I have an appointment for a massage that was gifted to me for Christmas.  Yea, I work so much overtime and I just plain kept forgetting to make the appointment.  So, later this week, I’ll let you guys know how it went.  I won’t be posting again until Friday night or Saturday at the earliest because I’m working double shifts at work the next two days.