hmmm.....

Last week, I didn’t exercise even once.  The week before, I only exercised twice.  This week wasn’t any different.  Nothing.  Again.  Ugh.  I’m terrified because I have the Rock’N’Roll half marathon in less than 3 weeks.  That’s 13.1 miles and I feel like I’m not doing what I need to do to make sure I’m ready for that.  I finally texted Tilsa’s trainer this week to see about setting up a session for Monday (the 4^th).  I think I need someone to kick my ass to get me back into gear with working out.  I just can’t seem to get myself to put on my workout clothes and go to the gym.  I even decided to change from going to the gym in the morning to going at night after work because while I was on vacation in September and that week of training at the beginning of October I was mostly working out in the afternoon and evening.  I didn’t feel rushed or pressed for time when I did my workouts later in the day like I have been when I do them in the morning.

I’m very frustrated with myself, to say the least.  I was doing great, working out at least 3 days, usually 4-5 days and sometimes 6 days a week.  Then I decided to shift gears and change over to Paige’s workout plan for me.  However, I got lost in between gears and ended up stuck in neutral.  I know I need to run at least a 4 mile and a 8 mile run between now and the RNR on the 17^th to feel confident that I can do it.  I mean, deep down, I *know* I can do it despite the fact that I’ve now not run for over 2 weeks.  I just feel like a failure.  I’ve let myself down.  And I saw this coming too, to a certain extent, anyway.  I knew that if I let up too much that I would just stop and then I’d have a hell of a time getting back in the game again…and that’s exactly what has happened. 

I have a session with Sammy (Tilsa’s trainer) on Monday at 4pm, then Tuesday I can either run on the dreadmill or do one of my strength training workouts (the “Paige” or the upper body/abs).  So far I’ve got an overtime shift scheduled for Sunday morning and Friday morning.  So, unless I pick something else up on the night shift, I’ve got Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday and Saturday mornings next week.  Or…I’ve got Tuesday, Wednesday, Friday and Saturday nights after work…which is the more likely to happen.  I mean, I really hope I can pick up another shift of overtime on the night shift one of those nights, which means I’ll have 3 of those 4 days (nights) to fit in workouts.  The only thing is, with those longer than 30 minute runs, I will need to do those in the mornings before work because I am NOT running more than 30 minutes on the dreadmill if I can avoid it.  And I most certainly am not running 8 miles on it.  I’d rather poke out my eyeballs.